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Collection 1
18:00
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i'm nauseous
but ill try
not to let it ruin my high
i'll bet his bed is warmer than mine
i'll bet his hands hands work faster than mine
i had a dream
i wanted to kiss your sad face in the black lodge
i was dressed nice
you were casual at best
now i'm throwing up in someones bathroom
i barely know
and i'm wasted even when i'm not wasted
i'm always wasted
in the dark parts of my mind
i see that you are tied
and i'm making you love when you don't love me
you can leave if you want
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cuties in far off places like me in my short shorts
drinking root beer and feeling alone
i'll matter for a month
then you'll hate me i'm not enough to be special you'll just hate me and get annoyed
throwing up in front of cops i'm already hurting myself
when i'm lucky to be liked at all
but i'm so selfish
i'll ask for more
and when i cant get it
there's none at all
friends until tundra
skeletons dressed in high fashion
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killed the drinks where we were and then we touch
i said something then i said "spirit."
i feel my body kick me out
accepting process
i wont tread
signal.
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i saw you
and i
couldn't speak
fill with black
and i
cave in
into my
impulsive
ness
dawn my flag
my
mourning garb
don't feel
don't feel
that i own you
don't feel
i can feel whole
but that's alright
and i scoff "life's not fair"
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immortality
cover me in honey
my place in heaven
is a mirage
oh i'm having a wonderful time
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i'm not so concerned
i just want something to drink
dull sense from sweet
dull dull dull dull dull dull dull dull
i don't know how to reach you
i don't matter
i don't know
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i first stat
in earthy format
feeling slower
distance me
don't leave with my terror
wont take
anything with me
i wont need it will i ?
what will it take
when will i have had enough
whats enough
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you say you're blessed and i'm blessed
and secrets become
your teeth
structure
looming fiend
i drink the tea from your dreams
imperiously and mouthiously
i come back
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taken
humans are vampires
decomposing
evil has the forms
allegory of unrest
watch yer demons eat yer gods
devil in the hungry cold
fortified with heavy gold
and i convert to folly
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Collection 2
16:58
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into the night
i walk
in temper
i've got my tolerance
wrapped around nothing kept in my lower left
in a fantastic body
my patience's hungry
overfed with terror trembling and anxious wreck
in a fantastic body
there's nothing left around me
ambition'd be a miracle
only whats inside of me
confined to this holding cell
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remember when you'd tell me
you would fucking leave me
if i wouldn't play my part
slap me in your mattress
keep things from ending
order for just one more time
well hold back your wasteful little heart
your weightless fucking heart
remember when id tell you
i could never please you
because my broken parts
love is not forever
and conditions make it weaker
it's a desert and your thirsty hide
well hold back your complaining thoughts
your claims
your compelling response
does love need hands ?
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i don't want to sleep anymore
shape of the ascension
cleanliness of thought, you rot
no one's seen the angels
fall down in the dark, you rot
blessed are the weak, for what their not
no one's seen the angels
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right before you leaved
i told myself i'd leave
i do not deserve what i want
i do not deserve what i need
one more time for me
how do you measure
a year
and not
feel like it's all over
i'm just over dramatic
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yer venom creeps amongst me
(your voice silent but heavy)
????
(guarded intention)
you won't speak what you're thinking
?????
(do you really see me ?)
i am nothing you won't be
(???? ???)
you won't speak what you're thinking
yer venom creeps amongst me
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animals could shadow me
in their fears of death and surely
all their wants and motives
from all sides we're different enough
no one cares about anything but themselves
to escape the vicious tides
of friendship feigned and disregard
what you made i want no part
by accepting them i've been erased.
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the same never changing
cold mechanical voice speak on the bus
a single file pilgrimage
of red lights homeward
extends to the farthest reach
of
the vantage from the seat in the center
the unfamiliar parts of the valley
rarely touched by my eyes
the small world i live in expands slowly in my
a certain nausea
from my over coated body
low in my neck
and the wooziness
from down to the stomach
the small world i live in expands slowly
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white truck oldies ring but easy
the sunset purple vibrations do you feel me
did i imagine discover
ghastly self in the little isolations
three trees and a little stream,
and a hot cowboy sun
and a cow carcass being eaten i almost immediately forgot how to get there
i remember the flies
my memories got scattered by dream files
whats never happened can easily be just as real
Vietnam dream
scared me silly
i'm not at war
what are you waiting for ?
we're all dying
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you use your words like you want
decaying admiration
i'll just fuck off
know its not enough
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